I know the traditional advice you hear from agents and writers is to make sure you've made that book the best you possibly can. Edit edit edit. Wait. Don't be too hasty.
But...sometimes you just have to hit send.
Now, I'm not advocating you write a first draft manuscript and then a first draft query and just shoot them off to every agent out there. No. DON'T DO THAT. I'm just saying there are times when you hang on to that book too long—those who do that know what I mean. There's like two camps of writers. Those who jump the gun and those who stay at the starting line long after the gun fires.
I was a jump the gun writer. I used to send stuff out way before it was ready. I didn't know that. I do now. It took a lot of mistakes to figure that out.
With TRANSPARENT, I seem to have turned into a hesitant sender, sharer, talker, whatever. I feel like every time I say something about it I'll jinx myself or something. It felt like the moment I hit send I would realize how it still sucks and is ultimately flawed. This has filtered into my other new projects as well. Soooo hesitant to share my work now.
Well, I hit send today.
It actually feels pretty good, to have it out of my hands for a while. We'll see how I feel when it comes back...