I thought it'd be fine. I was already in the groove when I finished off Transparent. Since I had to send a partial of Sidekick to my agent, I figured, "Eh, why not just do the whole first edit?"
Yeah, not my best idea.
I am fried, guys. I've spent too much time fixing book problems. Too much time with two separate characters. Too much time stressing over getting things right. Friday night my brain essentially exploded. I went to bed, had a horrible dream about ants crawling all over me, and then didn't sleep at all after that. Got like 2 hours of sleep.
And that night, awake, I could not shut off my brain. I was in emotional overdrive. In a strange way, it felt like all the emotions I'd been working to put in my characters had taken over. Plus, I'm waiting for feedback from my agent, so it was a night full of "Are these books good enough? Will she like the rewrite? What if she hates both? What will I write next? I have no idea what to write anymore I'm so tired and where and who and what and why am I oh my gosh I might really be losing my mind?!?!
Really. Don't edit 2 books in 3 weeks. It's not admirable. It's stupid. I should have taken a breather, instead of getting all obsessed.
There is a reason this writing process takes so long. It's mentally and emotionally and sometimes even physically taxing. Sometimes I forget just how much it takes out of me, and then I pull some stupid stunt like this and go, "Oh yeah, taking time IS important."
Don't overdo it. Really, it's not worth it. I am so fried right now that I'm not sure I'll be able to write for a few weeks. I just want to sleep. A lot. And do all the other stuff I didn't do the last few weeks.
Also, it would be really nice if this constant headache would go away.